A Long Goodnight.

The day approaches.  I hoped it never would.  But it will be Demain.  Please God, never give me this choice again.  I don’t want to have to choose.

I so much prefer dogs who suddenly get ill and have to be put down.  This is all I have ever known.  So I am not handling this very well.  Although I have to say that Charlotte has no idea at all, at all.  It is just me who is becoming more weepy by the day.  I very nearly cried today.  What a bloody wimp I am.  But then I ever was, over things that were  even more or less important.

But this is for the moment.  Please go quietly into the long night, although I wouldn’t blame you if you don’t.  I won’t.  But I will do everything I can to make it more easy for you.  You have been a total horror story who no longer trusted anyone by the time you came to me.  I am so sorry that you never trusted me.

2 Responses to “A Long Goodnight.”

  1. Elizabeth Says:

    Elena, I learned a long time ago that the Angel of death is the most loving, compassionate Angel amongst Angels. It doesn’t matter that you are summoning the Angel of death to Charlotte. You are complicit in mercy. Be courageous. You do well.

  2. elenamitchell Says:

    There isn’t much to say, is there, when it must be done. Tis power over life or death, which I have never wanted, not even for an animal.
    Bugger The Angel of Death, but this poor little soul was never going to go quietly. I should have known that. She fought me every inch of the way when I first brought her home, and she didn’t even like me.

    I had forgotten most of this since she went blind and had to depend on me some seven years ago. That must have been awful for her.

    But let’s not be too silly about this. It is just another aspect of animal care,

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